The habit of denial

How we lie. How we lie to ourselves. Protection. Survival. And not from malice, not from a will to do ourselves wrong. At the very least we have a primal ability to ease the daggers of our worst mental pain. Easy denial in so many forms. Then like a shrinking scab, if the wound is not too deep and terrible, we can pick it away and face the truth and find that we are healed as well. We may have to own up to our part in how we hurt another, we may have to accept that the worst has happened and we must go on and be whole again. As we mature, we learn to see into ourselves better and better but we are never able to keep this natural instinct from occurring, it happens unconsciously and our best hope is that we improve at climbing back out of our safety pitfall. It's not unlike a blackout around a tragic physical accident, the brain keeps us from having to suffer the sharp edge of the incident. Our hearts get broken, our hope gets crushed, fate steers our lives into the ditch, evil people take our innocence and drive us down, circumstance keeps us at bay from our wildest dreams, loved ones are taken from us without warning. It's sad, but it's real and it happens to all of us. If we didn't have our denial, surely the suicide rate would be much higher. Our quality is shown when we climb back. It's in our struggle back to reality that we define ourselves, our character, our strength, our values. Yes, we must climb back! We must stand again! Have you not seen those poor souls that cannot find their way again? Turned and twisted in such strange ways. Scratching and clawing to change reality to suit there needs. Perpetual denial. Pride. Pride vs. truth. The truth will always win, and it should, and it's good. Be thankful for the truth. It is where the future lies, where hope is born, where you are walking in the sun. Surely we are growing, let the truth be your fuel, your food source, when you are ready it will always bring you in, support you and take you to your next adventure.